Well weekend was not bad.. untill lastnight.. things kinda went down that were not good. I think I did some damage.. in more than one way. Might be just fate or a fualt. Whatever case I have to move on... la dee da... ~boom~

Stay calm.. don't do something stupid..

Yeah me and my gf might break up ontop of all the bad things.. and my cells only got 2 dollars left on it.. it had $36 at the begining of the weekend...

Don't ask if I'm okay..




Fate or Fualt


Just watch my problems drift away

like the endless days of my life

unable to be have what I want most

empty I can sit broken

defeated or stronger is up to myself

but I will never let life bring me down

not like him.. not my phsycotic hermit of a friend thats sorrow is neverending

his pain is in his tearless eyes

tormented with pain he can not dismiss

tormented by his biggest strength and biggist weakness

empty and broken he lays

I will not be brought down like so many before me

I will move on

I will be free

I will never give in...

I will be more than you ever thought I could be

I will not come back for you..

I will be gone like your trust in me

In the eyes of happyness everything crumbles

Nothing can be planned

My fate is already layed before me

I'm just following the rabbit trail of my life

by Andrew Walker




~The night I'm all fucking fucked up
The night when all the stars fell down
The night is nails back in my skin
So goddamn true, it's just too much time

The night is all eternity
The night that burns my eyes like fire
The night when demons laugh at me
So goddamn true, it's just too much time

You don't fucking deserve me

There is just too much time~

~Don't load me up with stones
Load me up with gold
Weight on the shoulders
Weight on the bleeding soul
So you wanna break me
So you wanna break my will
Now I know you shoot to kill
Now I know you only wanted

Bring me down
Crush me under your heel
Bring me down
Break every bone in me
Bring me down
Tear off my self esteem
Bring me down
Bring me all the way down, down, down...

These days are mudrer
These days are darkest days
Faces surround me
All turning to one big mess

Words are like little knives
Slicing me piece by piece
Now I know you shoot to kill
Now I know what you want from me

You destroy my solar system, but you'll never break me mister

Bring me down
Crush me under your heel
Bring me down
Break every bone in me
Bring me down
Tear off my self esteem
Bring me down
Bring me all the way down, down, down... ~